I am feeling blessed to have found my answers! Could God be around and listening? I can’t believe what I had been desperately trying to look for everywhere was right here— in my heart and soul. The Karmic thread ties us all together. We are beings from the same Supreme light and the sparks within us, our souls, are the seeds that can be termed as one. The concept of oneness comes form this. Since each of is incarnated on this beautiful planet to learn the lessons for the soul we must follow the ritual of special relationships. These very special relationships teach us/help us to learn the desired lessons. Because we can’t see the whole picture at the same time the life seems like a puzzle. While we are forever trying to solve/interpret/live the puzzle of life in our own unique way we are at the same time moving forward and learning the lessons for the soul.
thanks gail-jane. i realize that having a feeling of self worth is very important. it really helps you live better and understand your responses. but what i fail to comprehend is — all our learned people say that we should look at everyone with feelings equal love and respect. if that is so then why have special relationships like that of a spouse, parent, sibling….. when we are supposed to consider everyone equal and treat all at the same love then why should i as a mother have feelings of love and bonding with my child. isn’t he like all others? why should i worry during his illness, why should i wake up with him during his exams, why should i feed him things of his choice or things that r good for him? when i take care of other kids in my block with same feelings why does it drain me? why can’t i feel the same compassion for my neighbor’s kid? why do i get jealous if my husband lokks at other women, why do i get mad if he comes in late and does not give me time? why should i expect the speacial treatment of love, time, attention… from him and not any body else? why have speacil relationships if are not to bind people in feelings of love? why do we feel resentful? why cant i get over the attachments in my life?
In response to SONIA’s comment: Hi Sonia, Are you asking why are you too close to the people you are related to?
In response to anoushka_f’s comment: Thanks Anoushka. This is indeed a great affirmation. In my earlier times I surely carried a very low self esteem. Though I am extremely well qualified and good looking by many many yardsticks, yet I always felt inadequate. I hated myself. I hated my circumstances. I hated my job. And there was a time when I thought of commiting suicide. All this nonsense was going on in my mind when God had blessed me with a much sought after degree of Masters in Electronics & Communication Engg, a great out-of-the-world loving husband, a social status that not many can even think of, two loving and wonderful boys, a wonderful set of parents and in-laws… you name it and I had it. Yet I was forever ungrateful and filled with low esteem. Then by God’s grace Buddhism came into my life and I started things in a better light. I learnt to be grateful, i learnt to accept karma and I learnt to look inwards for my human revolution. Now my life is changed and I am in love with myself and all things around me.I am forever grateful. My attitude towards many things has changed(though I would like it to change for other things as well!! See I am so greedy.)and I see positivity all around me. I am digging for gold in the other person and not focusing on negativity. I am setting goals and achieving the. Recently I set a few goals and the first one I achieved was that of learning Pranic Healing. I am happy and grateful for it all. God is kind. God bless you.
In response to meditatingmama’s comment: In response to Lee Nutter’s comment: Thanks Lee and MM. I find the support and response very encouraging. It feels that though I really dont know any one of you yet we are on similar wavelengths. I love being here.
In response to laurie’s comment: Its really strange here at bmindful. Every day whenever I feel I m struggling with this or that and I want to pour my heart out I open the site and either before I have penned something down or after I have placed a part of my mind on the screen I encounter a post that is THE answer to my issue or query!!! I love being here everyday. Thanks to all of you out there for making my day a bright one, filled with so much positivity.
In response to meditatingmama’s comment: In response to aftab’s comment: Thanx Afi and MM. I had downloaded some pictures from the net to make me understand some colours better. In Pranic Healing we are supposed to send coloured prana for healing in the advanced version. In order to be able to visualize colour better I downloaded a few pictures and while I was doing so I really liked this particular one. I found this to be very soothing and reminded me of sweetness and tanginess at the same time! I thought this is life- sometimes its experiences are sweet and sometimes they are not so sweet but when we look at the entire picture of life it appears to be just right and happy. So my profile shows just that for me. I feel blessed to be a part of a community that takes care of me like this! Thanx all of you out there for making my life clearer and open book for me!!!
In response to SONIA’s comment: :-) I was just calculating that you are somewhere in that direction :-) Looking forward to hear more from you.
Thanks for your support and prayers. Its lovely to know that you have read and thought about my post. I just read you post about your grandfather - so inspiring. It made me smile. I love your twist on the theme of burning desire - taking it back to basics, true desire from the heart. Always inspiring me Sonia. Have a great week, and blessings to you also. Anoushka x :O)
In response to aftab’s comment: Not yet Afi, the written exam would be in September and the interview, maybe, after 1 or 2 months of that. Thanks for your faith.
Thankyou Sonia, for the kind wishes for better health. Perhaps you are right. I have been meditating a lot and hoarding that energy a little. I dont know how to release it without being innapropriate!! Maybe you can help. I do suffer from anger sometimes and so I control and hold it back, which is not good for my health. Need to take up martial arts perhaps!! Perhaps MCM was right when he said he pictured me as a Kung Fu Priest!! LOL! ;O) God bless you always Sonia.
In response to anoushka_f’s comment: Was busy in an official assignment. Glad that it is over and we did it well. Well, I have missed you all also. Being on bmindful is like my breath of fresh air. I have enjoyed reading your comments. Lets be in touch.
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2009-05-04
Hello Sonia, I’ve asked myself the same question. We are all equal, special and unique. Everyone has the ability to love and be loved, although sometimes it’s hard to see it like that, sometimes we feel used and lonely and truly unloved. We wonder why others don’t treat us by our own standards and that makes you question your worth.Finding your person in you. knowing to yourself that you are, special, marvelous, fantastic and worth being loved makes other people and there special relationship totally irrelevant. Leave them too it..you too busy being just great!