Recovering addict to all things, recent widower with 2 boys and an older daughter, 41, Spiritual Atheist, I hope for the future of me, seeking self-knowledge or peace, whichever comes first.
12-stepper. A lover of wisdom, but possess little of it. Perhaps possession is nine tenths the law of loss. To possess is to hold sand in my fist. To make a fist is to spit in the wind.
Seeking friendship, but to be a friend firstly, without knowing what that truly is, seeking to step outside my comfort zone, without raising my own demons. Balance and moderation have not been with me for much of my life. There is much work on my plate.
I begin.
Someday I hope to step out upon the plain of the now, the full light of present upon me, open and exposed and unafraid, and see myself ahead, beckoning, come forth, come forward and run with me joyously.
In response to wpmama’s comment: Thank you! It’s good to be welcomed. I haven’t had a chance to cruise around and dally amongst the affirmations of others.
And I take your wish, and live it! The best is yet to be!
And best wishes to you and your journey to wealth!
In response to john’s comment: Thanks, John. I’m going to swim in my affirmations this day. If we reach out, there is hope and strength more than enough, beyond our wildest imaginings!
In response to MaiLady’s comment: Thank you, MaiLady! Forgiveness is a powerful thing, today I am doing my best to be present for my life.
Hi alendar, I hope you and your family enjoyed your thanksgiving holiday. In reading your profile, again, it gets me to thinking ( uh oh:) I think that what you have listed as your main focus, is what prevents most of us from being who we were meant to be and from just truly being happy in our life. I didn’t realized how negatively I thougt of myself and how much I didn’t accept or love myself until at age 52-1/2, I started applying EFT in a group setting of about 6 or 7 people. This setting is called “Borrowing Benefits” session and when we tapped into self-love and acceptance issues, I broke down in tears, realizing the issue I had with this and how it’s held me back for so long. I tell you this because, I’ve found that, to me, I feel that having the self-knowledge of one’s self, is neccessary before one would be able to accept and love oneself. The way I’m thinking is that if I don’t have the knowledge of self, then how can I ever begin to love and accept that of which I’ve no knowledge of. Does that make any sense?
In response to Morgan Marley’s comment: Thanks, Morgan! Glad to have you as a friend. I’m an addict, too, but not exactly to the human condition. It is fascinating, though. I am having fun and joy self-motivating; writing the profile was a liberating and freeing statement. I find the more I push, the more the belief comes naturally. When I am timid, the belief in myself is no longer that powerful flood of power from within.
I need to hit the forums, too, and blab there!
Hi alendar, thank you so much for the profound comments on my profile.
I totally agree with everything you’ve said and it has made me seriously question the eliminating contradictions focus which has been a priority of mine for so long.
Thank you for your thoughtful response, I am so grateful to have you as a bmindful friend. I look forward to seeing you around and hearing your thoughts!
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2008-11-20
I always like to say hi to people every time I visit here. One of the affirmations that I love is: Don’t let the hardships of the past rob you of the future. It sounds like you have two very special boys that will need you for a long time. I wish you the very best!