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thank you for your patience / will be redoing this
1) I expect myself to be at peace. That doesn't mean I'm totally intolerant of a lack of peace for myself when it occurs
or even the witnessing of
that lack of peace within others.
It's simply a powerful intention for myself. And it's a desire not an expectation for others.
I am more than a widow , though it is a big part of my story
I feel hindered in valued areas
when I expect others
whom I know well or others at a first encounter to deliver a certain behavior that lacks support
It is very nice to have support - though that’s my job(unless it is from a source who 'gets this)
support from my husband was excellent because
it was a solid friendship
that was ‘our everything’
I prosper from this understanding -who he was -who we were together &
that I am not married to the world /
Desires
My desires are key.
I write, review & stay in touch with my inner outer life.
I am proud of living as I have while going thru such a traumatizing loss.
I don’t have the luxury of a negative thought.. Why would I want to entertain negativity?
self criticism
My patterns of my expectations & desires that I notice that may lead to self-criticism… are
when I allow myself to receive the world's mirror view instead of my own.
(* world- people and the constructs of the negative influences in the world that seem to be in my face)I can only be in 1 place (well) at a time. I stray away from what doesn't give me the focus to be my best person even under the worst conditions.
“Never tell me the odds!” – Han Solo, ‘Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back’ (1980)
If someone says - 'that can't happen' 'that won't happen' Or they believe I need to be reminded what I'm up against -when I 'obviously' am doing what is reasonably possible for me… not only is it not supportive … it lacks the understanding that human beings often need … that the odds may not include us all… that's why I love the quote-'don't tell me the odds. My weakness with people is believing is that their level of empathy will grasp what I share the way I would like it to be understood
My expectations align with my true values -the minute I stop listening to others perceptions of me/my life. Even when they are kind… which I prefer … I prefer people admitting they can only know themselves … though they can appreciate the work I put into being me. To me, that's the highest praise you can give another human being who is actively doing their best, and they share they are.
question that really speaks to me is the question about short term memory enhancement-goals/intentions/ Glitches /factors/Mindfulness in daily life/awareness /thoughts//empower
will be back to work on these further
Its wise to not exclude others ... though way wiser priority to be in touch w/my self first
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