★ Stop worrying over stuff I can't control

Right now at my job there have been a good number of terminations of employees that have worked here for several years. Before this happened there have been whispers about our diminishing customer base. Sales are down, and management has been having all of these secret meetings and people have been disappearing right and left for whatever reason.

Over the past few months I’ve become increasingly paranoid about job loss with the economy downfall and the situation at work. I have lost my job in the past from a layoff and a termination as well and it really upsets me to see things like this going on around me. I begin to worry about what is on the horizon. Ever since my year anniversary in my current department, I’d been asking my manager for feedback on my work and performance but have been brushed off. That was way back in February of this year.

More recently, in our company there has been a lot of strange restructuring and relocating and transferring of employees to different departments. My department in particular has lost 4 members from an already small staff of 9 at the beginning of this year. One resignation, one termination, and two internal transfers. I have watched our department shrink considerably over the past 10 months. And just recently my manager has brought up the importance of performance evaluations NOW, rather than when I asked for it almost 8 months ago, it was just dismissed and swept under the rug into the abyss.

So my concern now is that she has delayed AGAIN my evaluation, which was supposed to occur last Friday, she just calls out on PTO, and goes M.I.A, with no explanation and no apology. She’s gone an entire week and has not spoken to me about it what-so-ever.

I have made a decision. In situations like this in the past I would lose sleep over it, oh my God, what am I going to do if I lose my job. Years ago I’d obsess over it jump at every noise and get startled easily. Not this time. I’ve decided to not worry over things I can’t control.

I come to work on time, do an extreme amount of work greater than my colleagues so hey, it’s the best I can do. If my job folds it definitely won’t be my doing. So in this case, I am making the decision to not worry over something I have no control over. However I DO have control over how I feel and how I want to conduct myself in my personal life. I’m choosing to remain happy and carefree no matter what happens around me. I am supposed to have my evaluation this afternoon an hour before my shift ends, which is my normal time for one on one meetings anyway. I will update this later with the outcome when I finally receive the results of my performance evaluation.

In response to sophique’s post:

Hi Sophique and welcome! I worked in an office of a college and had a very negative supervisor. For her age and experince she was always gossiping and having people fired. It was hard to believe that all the people didn’t get together and complain to the dean. Instead most of them transferred or found other jobs. This lady too wouldn’t give me an evalutaion but she had no problems telling the other employees that I was a bad worker.

She would loudly talk about how people were stupid and couldn’t do their jobs. What I came to find out was all that loud talking was words she must have told herself! She was incapable of actually doing good work so instead she would find students who were accurate and fast to do her reports and gave them fringe benefits for helping her so no one would find out.

What was astounding is that the dean and other administrative staff knew of this and said nothing. Apparently tenure was what was keeping her working.

Sometimes Sophique this is God’s way of telling you there is something better out there for you. Keep up your good attitude and your eyes open you will be surprized at what good will come to you.

Peace,
Mary

Sophie, this is such a repeat to what I went through…except I was very pregnant and my division folded when I was out on maternity leave. I won’t minimize the fear that you must feel.

However, this is a perfect time to think about those impulses or flashes of insight you get – only to squash them because you “can’t do it with your job”. Maybe the Universe is giving you this pain as a push to take the next necessary step in your life. For me it was my long standing desire to start my own business. What is it for you? Are you going to write a book? Go for the dream job you stopped yourself from before?

Use this time to wisely to decide your next steps if it becomes necessary… and things sound a little toxic even if it doesn’t get worse!!

I feel like you have a song in your heart that you are getting ready to sing!!!

Wow thanks to everyone for all of the positive and encouraging responses! As I wind down the weekend and prepare for work tomorrow, I’m happy to say that my evaluation went rather well. I was pretty much told that I was appreciated and to keep doing what I’m doing and make an effort to become even more advanced specialist for the software that my department supports.

My manager is getting pulled in different directions these days because of new projects going on, so I’m trying to remind myself that our meetings get delayed or canceled not because she is avoiding me, but because she has a full plate and hey, in my case, no news is good news. If there were a problem with my work, from what I’ve seen at the company so far, believe me, if they wanted to get rid of me, they would have done it LONG ago.

So, carrying on to another day, and I will make the effort to become more advanced and skilled. At the same time, I’m also keeping my eyes open for opportunities that come my way as well.

In response to meditatingmama’s post:

Hey MM,

You’ve got me thinking there. My cousin mentioned me writing a book years ago, and I’ve actually thought about it recently. This situation with my job has definitely got my wheels turning.

In response to godscreation’s post:

Hey GC,

God is always ordering our steps. He will give you signs or strange coincidences to let you know that you are NOT imagining things and let you know which path to take. You just have to listen. My eyes and ears are wide open to what He has to say and I’m very excited.

♡ ˚Allowing Beautiful Thoughts  

Posted on 20/11/2017.

wonderful  discussion thread!