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“hey..”
“hi.”
“i love you.”
”..why do you love me.”
“all of the reasons in the world.”
“that’s not a good answer.”
“i think its pretty good.”
“will you name one of them.”
“you are beautiful.”
“why?”
“because.”
“because of what.”
“because, you are a wondrous, curious complex flock of trillions of tiny little conscious, magical things, consistently appearing and disappearing at a second’s rate, somehow able to always remember the exact place they were at before, and exactly the thing they were doing, even after they’ve popped completely out of existence, and then returned..”
”..”
“that’s one.”
“but that describes every single thing that exists.”
“it does.”
“yes.”
“yes. it does.”
“so, you do not love me more than every single other thing.”
“no. i do not love you more.”
”..”
“but i do love you.”
”..”
“and i do love hanging out with you more
”..”
“that’s why i like to spend most of my time with you..”
“what’s why.”
“because, you make me happy.”
“why do i make you happy.”
“i suppose, certain things that you do. certain ways that you react, think, talk, dance.. i don’t really know. special things that you do. make me feel good. i suppose.”
“like what things.”
“i just told you.”
“don’t you know for sure. specific things.”
”.. i know that when you smile, it makes me happy. and when you dance. that makes me really happy. and then all of those.. other.. somethings.. about you. that i can’t describe. i think actually most of it, really is just something special about you that i do not actually know how to put into words.”
”..oh.”
“i do love you with all of my heart.”
“i love you too.. with all of my heart. too.”
“sorry i don’t know how to put lots of things into words.”
“that’s okay actually.”
”..”
“so much bad stuff happens. it sucks.”
“aah. yeah. there are so many things that can suck.”
“yeah, people get sick. or break bones.”
“true.”
“and their friends and family will all die, they have to lose everyone they love.”
“also true.”
“and then they die. and lose the rest of everything. and they hurt each other intentionally!”
“yeah. that’s definitely insane.”
“i hate nucleus’s
“why?”
“because. they make the Protons and Neutrons, which were fine just floating around by themselves, clump together and make other things that can split apart and become nuclear waste that can kill the other things. that they made.”
“but isn’t it nice to get to dance. and swing. and eat cake. and have friends. and laugh. and be in love.”
“not if you have to fall and scrape your elbow. and lose everything some day no matter what. and you also have to get sick. and get called names. and break your leg. it’s messed up.”
“it does seem really messed up.”
“it does. i hate it. there are lots of things too that make it so much more messed up! like hate. and fear. people do crazy things like stab each other with pens. did you know some guy stabbed some other guy with a pen last week! all the way into his skin!”
“no.. i didn’t hear about that! that’s incredibly weird.”
“even just calling each other mean names. and trying to hurt each others feelings, is really messed up. and weird. and people do even kill each other! it is completely insane.”
“i don’t disagree at all. i think that those things are super messed up.. hopefully people start practicing not hating things. and not being angry.”
“yeah. but.. bad stuff still would happen.. we still all have to die no matter what. and earthquakes happen and stuff.. people die from hunger..”
“that is true also.. in the same way that we mysteriously pop into this life so that we can experience all of this madness, we similarly some day pop back out. like the atoms. that make us up.”
“i wonder what happens in the other place.. the place where like, you are at, when you’re not.. alive. like this. i wonder how things would be if there were no spaces..”
“yeah. that’s super mysterious.”
“yeah..”
“it’s exciting.”
“there is so much to play with and experience here. so much wonder, and magic, and so many things that can make us happy. it is a pretty short amount of time that we have here. to play.”
“it still doesn’t seem worth it to me. all the suffering..”
“similarly, a short time for suffering.. if you remember while you’re suffering that you won’t be suffering forever.. -since every second, every single thing in this place actually pops in and out of existence.. like, disappears..- then you can accept it. and you don’t have to be disturbed by such events. thus having to suffer so much more than you would have.”
”..”
“it helps also to remember when you are having fun that nothing lasts forever. then when that ends you will not be surprised. and you will be able to explore all of the wondrous magical things that you can dream of. and you can also remember really wondrous experiences you’ve had in this magical place. instead of being sad and suffering because of other things that are just happening.”
“if we have to suffer at all i think we should not play this game.”
“we don’t have to suffer!”
“you just said that the bad things happen no matter what.”
“things happen. people decide that things are bad. based on selfish reasons. when their mind is not balanced. like hunger. or illegitimate selfish reasons. like craving.”
“what?”
“i mean.. everything happening here is really just happening. there is nothing we can really do to change most of it, but we’re also not doomed to suffer. suffering is a choice. you know.”
“that’s stupid.”
“why?”
“because. if suffering was a choice no one would choose to suffer.”
“it’s not really a conscious choice.. your mind kind of makes it happen for you.. when you leave it in charge..”
“well, crap!”
“but you can come out of suffering remember. by practicing specific techniques at the ultimate level of your mind. sharpening it. becoming in charge of it.”
“oh. yeah.”
“yep.”
“i.. don’t really think i believe you. that doesn’t seem possible.”
“the buddha didn’t suffer anything.”
“but he died.”
“yeah but he didn’t cry about it.”
“oh. right. but that doesn’t count. he was buddha.”
“well..
he wasn’t buddha. and then he spent days and days and days sitting under a tree; practicing sharpening his mind so that he could explore the reality of exactly what was happening all the time, by closing his eyes, and focusing on only sensations. also practicing letting all of his distracting thoughts quietly roll around in his head. and eventually they got weaker and weaker. so they were not so distracting to him. and then after somany days of practicing, he could feel only the subtlest sensations..”
”..yeah..”
“.and then he practiced noticing when sensations made him upset, and when he would notice that he didn’t like a sensation, he would immediately smile and accept it as the strange, wondrous little impermanent phenomena that it is. simply happening. same thing when he would be wishing he was having a different sensation.. like when he would wish for very ‘nice, pleasant, subtle’ sensations. he would realize immediately. that he was wishing for them, and ignoring the tickling poking sensation that was actually happening.”
”..”
“immediately he would remember the fact that he was practicing noticing and observing and accepting the moment. and he would start again. he got to the point when he had changed all patterns of reacting. so he was only observing the sensations that were happening. and then all of his actions were conscious premeditated wholesome actions. no slips. and then he didn’t suffer anything. he just experienced it. and he was really happy.”
”..”
“and then he opened his eyes. and his hands.”
”..”
“and then he was a buddha. “
“mm. i don’t know how to do that.”
“i don’t really either. but luckily, (gautama the buddha) this enlightened being spent the rest of his life teaching the exact technique he had discovered step by step, to as many people as he could. and many of them also worked hard. and also became free from suffering. and they taught the technique. and now there are lots of teachers. they spend all of their time teaching people the technique so that they can do it themselves.”
“why would they do that.”
“do what”
“worry about teaching other people the technique. why wouldn’t they just sit and enjoy their happy freedom.”
“because they are free from suffering, and judging, and their minds are full of wisdom, from experience; and acceptance, and compassion. anyone who is free from suffering isn’t going to want anyone else to suffer. because they are free also from ego. from selfishness. so actually.. if they are truly free, they will wish the exact opposite.”
“for other people to be free of suffering.”
“yep.”
“wow. that’s cool.”
“yep.”
“so.. how do you think the atoms decide.. to be my foot.”
“i have no idea.”
“do you think they know things.”
“maybe.”
”..”
”..”
“i think life is good.”
“me too.”
”..”
”..”
“i want to dance.”
“let’s do it.”
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