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I’m a 23 years old Polish girl who moved to Scotland in 2007. Even that I didn’t know it, I used ‘new age’ (or whatever you want to call it) principles quite a lot. Thanks to my use of ‘accidents’ I moved to Edinburgh and a month later transfer my studies to one of the local Universities. I also got the best job a student can dream of in a very ‘posh’ supermarket. In my final year of studies I came across the book ‘The Secret’ which made a huge impact on me. Around the same time I got an e- mail from the student president at the time that the elections for the new president are coming. Me being me- I never let any opportunity pass me by so I put my nomination form in. A month later I was elected! I believe that it was me saying to myself: I’ve won; I’ve won; over and over again. And when a bad thought came to me saying “you have no chance you’re a girl from nowhere” I let it go.

It’s been over 6 months now that I’m in the job and I love it. I discovered that I’m a great leader and this is what I want to do in life. However it wasn’t all good. I have been given a hard time from friends of my opponent. Some students do not understand how difficult it may be to go upstream to try and change a messed up organisation- make unpopular decision which are disliked by your staff, university and sometimes the students. I was working long hours in constant fear of deadlines. Was rushing without a reason and had a feeling that I must have forgotten to do something. My personal life suffered. I didn’t get to see my boyfriend as much as I would like and we no longer spend any quality time together. Plus I wasn’t appreciated for anything I did, not to mention how weakly remunerated I am.

I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown when I bought Louise Hay’s book “You can heal your life”. I can’t appreciate it enough. I stopped rushing and start releasing my negative patterns of being not good enough for the job. I also forgive everybody that needs forgiveness every day. My life is changing for better again. I feel much more relaxed and now believe that there is purpose in life. My work- life balance in better with everyday and me and my boyfriend are becoming close again. There are few areas in my life that I would like to work on: - what career will use my potential and talents? - believing that I will get the career that is good for me. - believing that money does not have to be worked very hard for. - releasing the fear that I will never make money and live my mum’s life. - releasing the fear that if I even earn big money it will take long time for me. - releasing the fear of being not good enough because of my nationality. - releasing the fear that nobody likes me and accepts me and that I don’t have friends- which comes together with me accepting and approving myself for what I am. - releasing the fear of aging and being too old to do ‘fun stuff’. - releasing the fear of losing everything and being no one - being more grateful for what I’ve got - being more forgiving

I am grateful that I discovered this website. I hope that I can make some new friends here and that we can help each other on our journey.

Kasia

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